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I sit here holding the hand of the man who healed me, begging him to come back to me. His hand feels even colder now and his brain activity has gone down again. The doctor said he has swelling on the brain and that scares me even more. He needs to come back; I can't do this without him. I'm not too proud to admit I just had another crying bout; I've never felt pain like this before. I want so much to hold him again; to hear him laugh and see him smile. How do I say goodbye to the love of my life if it comes to that? How do I say goodbye to the man who gave me endless love and patience and the father of my child? How do I let him go if I have to? I never truly felt like I could breathe and finally let my guard down before him and I don't think it's going to happen again. Why did this happen? How is it fair that our son could grow up never knowing his father? I'm just scared, lost, and angry; so much of my life makes no sense without him. I realize my thoughts a...
