Mi amor 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I never wanted to write this and I still can't believe it's true. My beloved had a horrible accident and is in the hospital. This poor, sweet, wonderful man deserves so much better and is unconscious with multiple broken ribs, both arms are broken, and his right leg. I'm so scared he won't wake up; it's been a couple of weeks and nothing's changed. His hands were always warm and now they're cold, and his pulse is a bit weaker. God damnit, I just want my husband back. I finally fall for a good man and then this happens. 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I'm so angry at his boss; it's his fault, not Gabe's. I had a bit of a break down this morning, crying as I made breakfast. How cruel is it for this to happen to someone who doesn't deserve it? How cruel is it to find someone who feels like home and sees you for exactly who you are and loves you anyway and then possibly lose him forever? I don't know if I could bare to lose him; I knew peace and happiness with him whih is extremely rare and he felt the same about me. I know we haven't known each other long but he knows me better than almost anyone else. It seems cruel to let us find each other, fall in love, and tear us apart a few years later. I also hate to think of the absolute ghouls who would relish in his death if he doesn't make it. I don't intend to advertise the fact that he's been hurt but I don't know that no one will find out. Was it too much to ask that I have a family that ( mostly) loves me and a husband who absolutely loves me? Am I not allowed to have both? I have absolutely no idea what to do now; nothing is the same and nothing feels right. All I want is him, I wouldn't ask for or need more. I guess that's it for now.