This has been a tough week 😔😔😔😭😭😭

I truly mean it when I say this has been a tough week; I've been thinking a lot about my grandma, and the fact that I can never see or speak to her again. I do have the two books she wrote and many happy memories with her. She was a huge part of the reason I love words and writing like I do. Dad is the other, and also a published author. These things are literally in my blood, and my beloved ensures I have all the books I can read. He has been an absolute rock and I can't thank him enough for helping me through this. He also always makes me coffee every morning. He happily took charge of Trevor last night, telling me to take a minute for myself and take a nice hot bath. Once again I love him more than he will ever know. I knew he would realize how badly I needed a bit of peace and a little break, but I don't know if he realizes how much I needed it. I began crying from sadness and stress before he got home; I haven't entirely worked through my grief for my grandma and I've been trying to support and care for my family through their grief too. I haven't been on social media very much for a few different reasons; one because I don't really feel like talking to many people right now and two because I get so sick of and angry at the things men feel are appropriate to say to me, when they're absolute strangers. I wanted to share some of the screenshots I sent to Instagram but these assholes aren't worth the effort. I took Mochi and Trecor on a little walk last evening and I had to take pictures of how how beautiful it was. I love nights loke that. I'm also helping my friend, Brian, with his book. He has a character in his story who loves Japanese music and recently found out she was pregnant. Obviously, he took some inspiration from me and wanted to make sure he was as accurate as possible. I was approached by a clothes subscription service, asking if I could possibly work with them and showcase some of their clothes. I would love to but it would require me to be gone all day, leaving Trevor with someone else, or take him with me and I don't know if they would allow that. It's a good opportunity and would bring in more money, which would be great. I guess that's it for now.