Still conflicted

We had a very successful Thanksgiving dinner with some truly delicious food that didn't last long at all, and seeing my beloved talking to his parents and looking truly happy brought me more joy than I can express. He misses them more than he admits but his face said it all when he saw them; he was happy. I was happy to see my family too, until Mom showed up. It's not that I don't love her, I do, but for her to act like she did nothing wrong when saying quite possibly the most hurtful thing she could to me hurts even more. I don't really ask anything of her and have given years of my life trying to help her, yet none of that matters and she would rather I not be here. How do I reconcile that and even try to forgive her? Am I a terrible daughter and person? Am I so difficult to love? My beloved knows I'm still hurting and brought me these beautiful flowers. How is it that he can love me so easily and she can't? I had to add a few more pictures of our kitties, they just looked so cute and remind me also of unconditional love. I remember very early on in our relationship telling Gabe that was something I wanted but never actually expected to find or have. I still have moments where I take a hard look at myself and ask why he's been basically glued to me for over 3 years and why he puts up with my moods and feelings. I have no doubt I make things more difficult some days and still he loves me. I just wish she understood how much what she said hurts and rejected it makes me feel. I guess that's it for now.