So much work, so little time together
I had hoped this week would be a bit easier on us ( him specifically) but that's not happening. He and his guys are working, trying to build a bigger and sturdier dam aroud the river for when it floods again. He said the section they're working on right now is going to protect at least a hundred homes and I can't tell you how proud I am that he's doing that but he's so tired and stressed it seems like no matter how much they get done in a day it isn't enough. I made him chicken soup and pancakes from scratch so he could have something nourishing and relatively healthy to keep him going. He and I had a moment Wednesday morning where we lay there, holding each other and trying to delay letting go and doing what we know we must. We miss each other so much and he apologies for being busy but I was never mad at him for being gone; I worry he's working himself into the ground. The look on his face when he said he loved me before we finally let go spoke volumes. I know he knows he can't do this forever but he feels like he's neglecting me now and he isn't; his boss is just an unreasonable asshole. He said " You know I can't do this without you, right? Your love, strength, and patience have carried me through more than you know. I love you so much. " My heart can't take this man sometimes. "I promise you it won't always be like this. This is only the beginning; we will have our time together and we can do whatever you want then. " I simply squeezed him tighter and said" I know, mi amor. I love you so very much and don't forget how much you've carried me through." I love moments like that so much but wish he didn't have the dark circles under his eyes. I guess that's it for now.











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