Loss

This has been a turbulent few days. My aunt in Austria messaged me last night to tell me one of my cousins had passed away. He had a pulmonary embolism and within seconds he was gone. He was 45, and ít scares me in a way to think of someone a few years older than I am passing away; I know this doesn't happen every day but it still scares me, as it seems to be a hereditary thing. My grandpa and great grandma died of the same thing. I'm not worrying about nothing here, right? Mom called me, freaking out because she found some mice in her house; I told her there was nothing I could do personally but buy some traps or call the exterminator. She asked me to do both, though she easily could have. The írony of her bitching about the cleanliness of our house and then this happening is not lost on me. I went to bring my beloved his lunch, trying out the pink dress Mom got me a few days ago and it definitely gets his approval; him openly staring at me and saying "Remind me to thank your mom for getting that dress for you. God you're gorgeous." 😘😘😉😉 I guess that's it for now.