I got my altar decorated for Ostara and it came out beautifully. I wanted to show that off a bit because it took a while to get the decorations the way I wanted them. I took Mochi out for a walk and it was peaceful and beautiful, though not quite enough to take my mind off my worries about my beloved. Even after sleeping he seems tired. I worry he truly is working himself into the ground and I hate seeing it. I baked a quick batch of cookies for him, I couldn't think of anything else to do. He always accepts things like that with a smile and real gratitude but they feel so miniscule I can't imagine they really help that much. There's this fear in the back of my mind that I'm going to be a burden to him and I hate that. I know he doesn't see me that way at all and I try so hard not to be but I feel it. I never mention it to him but I often don't have to say anything for him to know what I'm thinking of how I feel. I love getting "I love you" and "I miss you" messages throughout the day, and I know he means it. I miss him too, so much. I guess that's it for now.
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