We need peace

I sit here, having my little snack of fruit and coconut water and wait for my beloved to come home. I brought him his (slightly overdone) pork chops and mashed potatoes. He still really enjoyed it though I felt bad that they were overcooked. He might have said he enjoyed them so as not to hurt my feelings, but I hope he actually meant it. It's not often I overcook things and I truly felt bad that I did this time. I didn't pay attention for a few seconds and that happened. I might be a little more disconcerted about Dennis skulking around my work and our house than I care to admit, I'm trying to work through it but it's taking a bit longer than I thought. I just want to find peace and happiness again. It's not fair that I have to worry about this and don't know why he chose me. I'm truly just an ordinary woman and want to live my life in peace with the few people who make me happy. My beloved ordered me this parasol set which I think is really cute because he feels guilty about being so busy. He knows he doesn't have to do that, and I feel guilty that he does these things. I know how hard he works, and I wish he wouldn't spend the money he makes on me. It's not that I don't appreciate it but I sometimes feel I don't deserve it. He said he worries about how I burn in the sun and it's going to start getting properly hot here pretty soon so he wanted to give me something to protect myself from the sun with. ♥️💕🥹🥹 See what I mean when I say he's sweet as sugar? I should go do something else for now. I suppose that's it for now.