Trying to find normal again

I'm trying to act like normal again; I made some tomato soup for lunch and am working on pizza for dinner. I brought my beloved some soup and yes, I wanted to feed him, but I wanted to hug him more than anything. I needed to feel his arms around me, you know? That feeling of safety is unmatched. I treated myself to a bit more skin care as a way to cheer myself up and calm myself. Plus, all these products smell incredible. I was looking atthese Sanrio storage containers for my stationry things. I have way more than I need and love these so much; they're so cute. I'm honestly trying to be strong but I'm scared. I showed Gabe the screenshot I posted here yesterday and watched his face darken again; he knows I ignore this shit but it upsets him that men keep doing it. I don't keep my relationship a secret ( obviously) and had one guy straight up tell me in a message request on Instagram he hopes Gabe dies so he could have a chance with me. 🤬🤮🤬🤮🤬🤮🤬🤮 In what universe is it okay to say that?!?! I don't have a lot of pictures of us posted ( he's shy and barely posts any pictures of himself on his page) but some pictures were too cute not to share, so I did. People know we're together without me having to mention it and there's no way it's okay to act like this. This guy doesn't give a shit about me as a person and if I were single and slept with him he would ditch me and I would never see him again. Whereas Gabe actually cares if I'm safe, happy, and wants to hear what I think and what interests me. He isn't just here for the physical aspect of our relationship and that's what makes it a real relationship; mutal love, understanding, and respect. Of course common interests, shared values and a similar upbringing and outlook on life help. He started watching " One Piece" and listening to Dir En Grey because he knows they're my favorites and wanted to get a better look into what makes me who I am and wanted to get to know me better. He bought these books about Wicca and has been reading them to learn about my religion; I can't tell you what that means to me. I honestly can't wait to be his wife. That's enough for now.