Anniversary 💐🎉💝

I got permission to come home a little early and got to use the bath bomb I ordered; it was so relaxing and the bath water smelled incredible. There were chocolates and roses delivered to my office, with a note from Gabe telling me he made reservations at this new Japanese restaurant that just opened up, along with tickets to see The Birthday Massacre next month. I couldn't believe it; he isn't the biggest fan of their music but knows I love them so we're going. This is kind of a combination birthday and anniversary gift but I'm so happy I nearly cried. Of course, I don't need all this but it's so remarkably sweet and wonderful of him. I fully plan to jump into his arms when he gets home; I've been so spoiled these last 18 months and have never felt so loved. He said we can go somewhere else after dinner if I want or we can come home and spend the rest of the day quietly. I wouldn't mind going stargazing with him after dinner; safe, quiet, peaceful, and just the two of us. I wouldn't ask him for this stuff but am certainly not going to refuse his love and generosity, that would only hurt him. We haven't gotten to go to a lot of shows together, Cradle of Filth was the last time, so I'm super excited. I have my dress (pictured above) for the night laid out and need to get my makeup done but have gotten fairly good at doing my makeup in a reasonable time. I'm thinking about our future and all of it sounds so wonderful; all I truly need or want is in front of me. I don't need anything more; a quiet, peaceful, happy life with my beloved and my family. Brian asked me why I'm not coming to our writer's circle tonight, I explained our plans, and he got so upset and jealous. Evidently he and his wife never do things like this and it set him off. I can't help his problems and don't want to be blamed for them or have him be mad at me for it. I deserve to be happy, God damnit; I keep telling myself that. Alright, I need to get ready. That's all for now.