Feeling like a failure 😭

Today (as most days) has been a lot to deal with quite close together and I would be lying if I said I felt no stress or sense of inadequacy. I paid the electric and Internet bills this morning, fed the pets, and made breakfast for my beloved. I then made the above pictured butter chicken and brought him one of his favorite meals for lunch,which he thanked me profusely for and happily devoured. I've done everything my boss asked of me, yet still feel like a failure and like I'm not doing enough for Gabe, my family, and even my boss. I offered to stop by Mom's and help her with a problem she was having with her PC and hope I can. I also dropped something off at the UPS Store to return to Amazon because they sent me the wrong thing, and honestly I'm kind of tired already. How is it possible to do so much yet feel like you've done nothing and you're letting everyone down? I have to note no one seems unhappy with me; the smile on Gabe's face said so much and the embrace and kiss said more. I know this is just being an adult and soon a wife but God damn, when did everything get so complicated? He and I were talking about wanting a simpler life and I think he would take to it more easily than I; he's naturally a minimalist and I'm not. I'm not super materialistic but have a robust collection of shoes, clothes, makeup, and books. I've been beating myself up a bit for having drawers and a closet I desperately need to organize and just lacking the motivation. I don't often have free time, less so when my beloved does, and when I do I want every millisecond with him that I can get. I wore my Edgar Allan Poe shirt to drop off his lunch today and the first words out of his mouth were " You look absolutely stunning." I could almost see the hearts in his eyes and love that. One thing we were talking about was getting an RV and driving to all these different places, and I think that could be super romantic and fun. He was saying " We could do that, baby. Just you and me, perfect peace and quiet." I would love it but the pets complicate things a bit.

I was playing with Pudding a bit and know we could never part with our pets, but I really do want to simplify things. I should finish up here as my break doesn't last forever. That's enough for now.