I'm so lucky ♥️💕♥️💕

This is another day where I have to sit back and really appreciate what I have. My beloved is (predicably)at work but I at least snatched a few hours with him and had a bit of a surprise show up at our door. I heard a knock at the door, peered out through the peephole, and saw the lady who delivers our mail with a couple packages in her hands. I opened the door, greeted her and thanked her for the delivery but explained I didn't order anything. I have a massive shopping problem, believe me, and an trying to get over it. She smiled and said " Technically they're in Mr. Rodriguez's name but I have a feeling they're for you." She handed me the boxes, waved, and I shut and relocked the door. I texted Gabe asking if he ordered anything and he replies with " Damn, it got there before I got home. It's all for you, my love. I hope you enjoy it. ♥️" I open the first box and find an Edgar Allan Poe bust and tank top from VampireFreaks. He knows how much I love Poe and what his work means to me and this was one of the sweetest, coolest, and most perfect gifts I've ever gotten and I know exactly where I want to display it. I have this old, ugly, shitty writing desk I got at a garage sale and have been meaning to fix it up, maybe repaint it, and wanted some literary inspiration and a bit more of a gothic touch to it so it fits more with the rest of our place. I also had a much loved and much used glass skull coffee mug which I accidentally broke while pouring some extremly hot coffee into it while it was very cold. I was more than a bit pissed off and upset that I broke it and couldn't replace it; I got it almost 10 years ago and they don't make them anymore. He said the little cauldron mug suited his gorgeous little witch perfectly. I'm having trouble removing the smile from my face as I write this. How well does he know me and how did I get so lucky? We were listening to Dir En Grey earlier and I love that he actually likes them too. Granted, he isn't as big a fan as I am but he obviously enjoys the music. I sent him a Spotify link almost 2 years ago to my favorite song and from there he took it upon himself to search out more of their music. He understood quite well what that song means to me and what it means that I wanted to share it with him. That song is "Merciless Cult" and the chrous where Kyo is singing "どうか私を愛してください」 always gets me. He's literally just begging someone to love him and that hits me really hard. I felt like I had to beg people ( my dad and Shoji specifically) to love me and I never will again. I'm so loved now and that's all that matters; I can't thank the universe, Karma, or whatever it was that brought us together enough. I should go get his lunch to him; he's probably ravenous by now.