I hate this 😭😭😭

Gabe finally stumbled in about 35 hours after leaving and I'm absolutely livid. Not at him; I'm worried about him. They can't keep doing this to him. He's asleep now, I peak in on him every once in a while and love seeing his handsome face finally at peace. He brought me flowers and chocolate because he feels guilty being away from me and yesterday was technically our anniversary. We essentially just held each other and he grabbed me so tightly. He kissed me, told me he loves me, and nearly begged me to forgive him for being so busy. The last time I tip toed in he grabbed me and pulled me into bed to cuddle. He said he needs that as much as sleep. I asked him how he drove home so exhausted and he said he was just lucky there wasn't a lot of traffic. I heard his truck and nearly ran to the door, I was getting so worried. After he fell asleep again I gently removed his arms from around my waist and covered him up, making doubly sure I tightly shut the door so the pets don't wake him. The first picture is Brian's, the friend I mentioned yesterday, interpretation of how Gabe treats me. He isn't totally wrong. 🤣🤣He was saying again how he never really felt that way about his wife, Ashlynn. I haven't had a man treat me this way previously either but it's incredible. We spoil each other, I don't know what else to say. Brian seems to want out of his marriage so badly but is obviously afriad to leave because he doesn't think he's going to find another woman. I have no solution to this and have noticed him hitting desperately on any goth girl he comes across. That puts me on edge as he obviously knows that's wrong but still does it. Maybe that's the kind of woman he wants but couldn't get; he married the first woman who would go out with him and that seems like a terrible choice. He's been making a few somewhat inappropriate jokes and comments to me and I told him if he does it again our friendship is officially over. I tired playing some games to take my mind off things but find it very difficult to foucus on them right now as it's cluttered with so much other shit. I guess that's enough for now.