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This was my view today as I went to bring my beloved his lunch. It's so cold right now that I'm actually kind of shocked. He and I are both from the north and generally handle the snow with aplomb but everyone else is freaking out. He was actually happy to see the snow. We had a lot of rain, then it got freezing cold and started snowing. Mochi had the time of her life on our walk this morning, I had to run to keep up with her. I'm also charging some crystals for some work on the full moon, it's going to be a beautiful night and I really want to banish more negativity and ask for protection for him and my aunt. At this point it would ease my mind a lot just to somehow know they're going to be okay. I'm doing my best to be there and care for Gabe but my aunt is on another continent altogether and there's literally nothing I can do for her. We did talk a bit about his work schedule and I forget sometimes that in stubbornness he and I are quite evenly matched. He rarely digs his heels in about anything and I get my way 9 times out of 10 but he really doesn't want to give up on this job and the house he wants for us. He wants to provide more for me and our potential child or children than either of us had growing up but I don't want to watch him work himself into the ground either. It's not at all a bad thing that he wants a proper home for us but it's not worth it if it costs him his health. He knows how I feel about this and how I feel about him, but as he put it " What else can I do?" He feels he's a bit too old to change jobs now and nothing else would pay as well. He's also been there a couple of years and gained some seniority and a position of authority and responsibility. It's true that he would probably have to start all over again at another job and that would be frustrating, which I do understand. It's not that I don't see his point or understand where he's coming from and I didn't press him too hard on the subject as I don't enjoy upsetting him. To be fair he understands my point and desire to protect him too. I just worry in a few years I'm going to get a call that he collapsed or something and my heart and mind can't handle that. I know he doesn't like his job; he wouldn't cling to me like he does every night when he comes home if he did. It's more just a means of support. I hate that he's out there right now trying to drain the water from flodded streets; the water is freezing and nasty and I know that's not good for him. It seems like I'm going to be bringing him dinner too; and he's going to be up at 3:30 to go back to work. This is precisely my issue with his work schedule and why it worries me. Two days off, nonconsecutively, from work to go camping does not a proper vacation make. I guess that's enough for now.