We had a wonderful, quiet Yule celebration and at least got to check out one of the horror movies we wanted to watch; it was great. I have to praise the Yule log he and I made. Isn't it beautiful? I hope he doesn't think I'm asking too much of him but you don't know what it meant to me to have him there for at least a few hours; we needed this so badly. I know he feels guilty for being gone as much as he is and that's why he buys me the gifts he does and apologizes profusely but truthfully I would give back everything he's bought me to have more time with him. He was saying "I'm so sorry,I know we haven't had any quiet time. I'm going to try and get the guys to pull more of their weight at work. I really don't want you to feel neglected and I hate being away from you." This man. ♥️💕♥️💕♥️💕 As usual he knows my moods as well as I do. I didn't want to say anything but I had been feeling a bit neglected but more worried about him than anything. I should have known I couldn't exactly keep my feelings a secret from him; we really have no secrets. The truth is I know intellectually that it's not his fault he's been given bullshit work assignments and is dealing with it as best he can but I'm used ro being spoiled with attention. I know when we first met he was working a different, less demanding job and had more free time to be with me. When he accepted his current job they told him it would be demanding and he should be prepared for that but I don't think they impressed upon him just how much responsibility and work he'd be taking on. They seem to add more work and responsibility as he's one of the few guys who always shows up, is responsible and honest, and does his best every day; seems nore of a punishment than a reward. I love that he's hard working and honest, it makes me even more proud of him but I still worry he's working too hard. His birthday is hours away and I can't wait to spend it with him. I hope they don't make him come in to work on his birthday but I'm certain they will. I guess that's enough for now.
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