This entry isn't going to be about yesterday's entry; at least not entirely. I admit I'm still upset with my mom about the way she described Gabe, but I'll get to that in a minute. While we're on the subject of my beloved, though, he was made to work another insanely unjustly long day yesterday. The above pictures he sent to me to give me an idea of what they were working on with the message" I'm so sorry, baby. The guys and I have so much work left to do and the bosses and managers are being assholes. I might not make it home until real late. Please forgive me, I know I said I wouldn't do this anymore. I love you so much and I really really miss you.❤️❤️" He mentioned how the project hadn't been going well and they've been putting intense pressure on them to finish but he worked 30 hours straight AGAIN. This shouldn't be allowed. This entire project has been a disaster, not just his part of it, but the other guys' welfare isn't my concern and Gabe's is. I heard him come in about 2:30 am, barely shuffle to bed and cover himself up, grab me, kiss me as he knew I was awake, whisper an "I love you" and crash. He messaged me around 11:30 to tell me he'd be another few hours and I should get some sleep. Poor guy barely changed his clothes before getting into bed and didn't wake up until 2:30 this afternoon. Not by choice, but because our kitties crept in and jumped on our bed. I had to very gently disengage his arms from around me to get up and start the day and evidently didn't close the door entirely when I left the bedroom. He wasn't upset though as he knew his boss would call him in again. Sadly he's there again; I brought him some coffee and food as it might be yet another late night and he needs to eat. His buddies were teasing him ( us maybe) a bit saying things like " Look at him and his little wifey. She brings him food and shit. My girl is never that good to me. You're a lucky man, dude." He smiled and said " She is going to be my wife. I finally asked her and she said yes." The rest of the guys stopped for a second and clapped him on the back, cherring and saying things like " Good job, Rodriguez." " or "Proud of you, man. " I'm happy every time I see him smile and am glad that while his work situation sucks ass at least he has his friends. My mom meanwhile is probably never going to actually like him; though she also fully admits he's made me so happy and she's probably never seen me like this. She doesn't deny that he's the reason I started smiling, laughing, singing and dancing like an idiot in my kitchen again. He brought that joy and zest for life back to a heart that honestly felt so dead. He started smiling again because of me; why does she have a problem with him? He has a few small course edges but is sweet as sugar and I honestly believe he loves me more than anything; including himself. I tried explaining to her that he wants to buy a house for both of us to properly start our life together. I kind of thought she would be happy if we got married and weren't " living in sin" anymore and confronted her about it. She said she didn't think we'd be together this long and I'd get tired of him, dumping him. I almost couldn't believe she said that. She fully acknoledges that my mental, emotional, and physical condition all got better after metting him and getting together with him yet wanted me to leave him because she doesn't like him. He treats me like a queen or a princess and she has less animosity towards Shoji who dumped me out of nowhere and straight up admits he only wanted to be with me because of the size of my chest. That man nearly destroyed me emotionally and she knows it; to the point where I still need reassurance sometimes from Gabe that he loves me and isn't going anywhere. He's always willing to reassure me and only wants my happiness. I don't know what else she wants from him and this reminds me of why she was the last one to know we were together, months after the fact. I felt terrible keeping it from her but had a feeling they wouldn't be a good fit for each other. She noticed the change in me and how much happier I was and better I was feeling and it didn't take her long to figure out why. I was kind of glad of that to be honest; I hated sneaking around with him and not being able to admit that I was in love and happy again. I know she might think she has my best interest at heart but I guarantee removing him from my life would be working against my best interest. I really don't think she understands just how much better he's made everything for me and vice versa or how much we lean on each other for emotional support. I thought that's how it was supposed to be, you know? I never wanted anything else from him and he gives me that. I need to fet back to work; that's enough for now.
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