Thoughts and thoughts

 I know I probably came off a bit harsh on my parents in my last entry and I didn't really mean to though Dad probably did deserve it more than Mom given that for about 13 years I had no idea where or how he was. He waited until I was in my late 20s to come back into my life. I didn't realize I would lose him about 10 years later. I just get frustrated with Mom because most days it seems like nothing I do is ever good enough. I'm noticing Gabe being even more attentive and sweet than usual lately and he actually asked for Thursday off so we can go camping again. His boss acquiesced because he worked the entirety of Labor Day weekend and it seemed more than fair to give him just one day with me. I can hear the guys he works with making quips about "Messaging the little wifey" and " Trying not to piss off the little wifey or she won't touch him". 🙄🙄🙄 Needless to say he told me about that. He hasn't actually used vacation time since we met so this seems like something special. Part of me is wondering if he bought a ring and is going to propose on this little trip or if he just really wants more time with me. Either way I'm so happy. I'm trying to picture his proposal if he gives one and I think he would get down on one knee, take my hand, and give me a speech about how he didn't really know love until we got together. I remember telling him things like I was proud of him and that he makes every day better just by being here and the almost shocked look on his face. He  said basically no one had ever told him that before in his entire life. That broke my heart for him; his parents nor any previous girlfriends ever told him that?!?! Again I have issues with my parents but they both told me many times they were proud of me. I do also love both of my parents very much and that's why some of the things they've said or done hurt me as much as they did. I think I should probably go; he's coming home soon and I want to give him my undivided attention.