Off to San Juan..... Tomorrow

 I'm in the final stages of packing for San Juan and honestly can't wait to go. This is totally warped considering the reason we're going but I love so much that he wants me there. I know he wants to say goodbye to his grandma in private and I absolutely won't interfere in that but I'm honestly nervous about meeting her. This is the first long trip we've gone on together too so that seems like another rather important milestone. I packed for the both of us and have dinner going so when he gets home all he needs to do is eat, shower, and sleep. I want to make things better and easier for him as much as I possibly can. This isn't the easiest time for him anyway and if by doing little things like this I can make things better then I will. We both tend to take the gentle, caring approach with each other and it works wonders. I want to work more on the writings I have posted here and I will, I just need a bit more time and the proper motivation. I find writing like this to be much simpler and I honestly really like it. I still revise the entries here a bit if I find any mistakes but I want my stories to be cohesive and that takes a lot more work than just rambling about what goes on in my life and the lives of the people I love. I've also been rereading my collection of Edgar Allan Poe's works and "The Lord of the Rings" ; Tolkien and Poe are a huge part of the reason I ever put a pen to paper in the first place and I thought it might help me clear my mind a bit and refocus on why I want to write. The way they could build entire worlds and evoke such vivid, beautiful, incredible imagery with their words blew me away. I still look up to both of them, though I could never hope to match either of them. The feelings I get while reading their work remain the same; love for what they created and awe at the beauty of their creations. In so many ways I can still relate to the nerdy, awkward middle school girl with her loud angry music and books. The music, a few friends, and my books are probably what got me through high school. College wasn't much different. I had a very long "awkward stage". I guess that's enough for now.